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Feeling

In our life, we have feelin.

No matter how feeling is not far from us and not far from ur heart as well

Feeling is could not see and could not touch...

It is a soul of ur heart...

A feeling, "HE" controls all of our heart
"He" brings u happiness, a smile
"He" brings u sadness, tears

Many times, many days...
We are always make decision by feeling
No matter wat kind of relationship that we are holding v the ppl surroundin us
and we have differents feeling on different relationships

Miss, is a kind of feeling
Wanted to remove the feeling of miss is hardful

But being rejected feeling is hurtful

The feeling is like a knife cut ur heart off

I have no many requests

A seen of ur shadow, u r rejected me

How sad am i

A kind of feelin, miss u in my heart

How pain am i

A sentence, "Next time"

How hurt am i

A sentence, "Next time"

How much of blood i hv gone

A sentence, "Next time"

How much of miss i hv gone thru

I hardly to do nothin

Dun regret at the end

I hardly to say a word

Dun mind i speechless

I hardly to breath

Dun ask me why my tear is red

很愛很愛的感覺

很愛很愛的感覺.... "The Feeling of Deeply love"

In our life...im sure most of u have had a feeling of fallen in love on sumone else.
Maybe in our past experience we have gone thru but the feeling of deeply love is the hopin of everyone especially those r in relationship.

A simple 3 letter words is very easy to speak but the feeling of deeply love is couldnt be listened... couldnt be touched....couldnt be felt by ur lover. The only way u can go thru this feelin is only u, urself.

Love is like a piramid , there seperate v 3 levels.... The bottom is "simple love" , the middle is "experience love" n the top is "Deeply love". For the basic level of love, "simple love" needs a heart. Dun think it is so easy to get a heart from a relationship. It jux like u n ur love is sharin a cup of tea. Both of u need to tolerant n a lot of afford then u will be carried on to the 2nd level... Normally there are not so many ppl able to go thru the second level of love, there is "experienced love" coz in this level, all of ur characteristics n ur lover characteristics is tasted in relationship.....For the last is deeply love, is a horrible dreamz for those who have had this kind of relationship before but is a heaven for those r passed the experience love n there r still in relationship. However in this deeply love, there is only an objective for them; a long lasting relationship.....

unfortunately, they r a lot of ppl in this world is puttin ONS (one nitez standz) on their mouths n if u r willing to have sex v those guys or those gals but could u really get the feeling of love from him or her by doin "body contact" ? i had an experience that a person sent a mail to me, "Can u f**k me in, dunno wat date dunno wat time ." while i received this mail i was like sweat *_*" and i jux said a sentence "I diu u oso no time" coz it was the truth that i really hv no time to f**k you while i was in exam week...haha~~~ I dun like to have ONS v sumone that i dunno n dun have the feelin of love....

How n rather, a lot of persons r desire have a long term relationship but how many r they puttin afford in the relationship....there is no reason to love a person but there is a mission for u to love a person n u onli can get a deeply love feelin in ur life n as well as in ur heart....

A deeply love feelin is could not be moved by ur hand n hardly for us to move it away. Havin a strong love feelin on sumone is not easy to forget in ur life. After had havin a deeply love relationship, u only knw every movement that she or he had done, every tear that she or he had dropped for u....u really could not forget eventhought u r in a new life. Sumtimes, sum of ur frienz may sayin " u n ur bf or gf dun match", let me give u an answer; Love is to replace each other's weaknesses and not the simple word "Match" that they spoken...

Remember i hv post a journal that sayin a deeply love feelin needs to go thru by a couple then onli can realized n feelin it. There is nothin i could hope here, hopin the new life can given me an opportunity to have the feeling of deeply love again. "Holdin a heart better holdin a real body" !

Dreamz.....


written by Jetky,

Wei Wei @ Bao Bei
^00^ ^0^

The 208 days was a dreamz....

18, May 2007 Friday3:34 AM

In the past 208 days,
i've learned a lot....
U've given a big impact in my life....
An experience was enaf for me...
Remember the time u were rejectin me...

But today i able to stand to accept my new life....
Thanz for the experience....
A history was given me a hurt...
But today i need to stand up to reject u again....

Is no use that the bird comes bec to my cage again....
I've thrown the cage ....
The old cage was not value for me n for u again....
The onli thing that is not changin is the history....

I dun mind u hurt me....
I believe i was cared u...
I dun mind u curse me....
I believe i was loved u...

There is no use that u ask more from me...
We've a distance....
U dun ask me why....
I jux can say i scare u....

Dun try to ask me about my relationship...
I wont tel u more....
I have built a firewall....
Scare for ur cursin...

All is gone....
Past wasnt come bec again....
Dun ask me there is a possibility...
In the past i ady gave u my heart....

Now i jux wana re-build myself....
Given me a chance pls....
Now i jux wana have a silent life....
Given me a hope pls....
The 208 days was a dreamz....

Feeling....

12, May 2007 Saturday4:18 PM

Feeling....
Im try to close to u
It seems like i could not approach
I try to mk u happy
It seems like u have no feelin

I try to concern u
It seems like im hurtin u
Wat should i do ?
The feelin of u seems like gettin far from me
wat should i do ?
The heart key from u is gettin far from me
Wat shoud i do ?

The song of angel is step onto my heart
Is it im think to much
I should not think
Is it im feelin hurtI should not feel hurt
Is it u hv no feel on me
I should not have feel on u

I realized i miss ur voice
Oh my. u r my soul
I realized i miss ur soul
Oh my, u r my spirit
I reaalized
i miss ur sms
Oh my, u r my vitamin
I realized i miss ur feelin
Oh my, u r taken away my heart

but today u...
I dunno wat is hapenin
But today u...
I dunno why u jux sms a single smsbut today u...
I dunno why i cry for u
But today u...
I dunno why i scare to lose u

Am i fallen in love ? ? ?

3rd day at labu

11, May 2007 Friday10:11 PM
Em..jux came bec from waterfall v my best frienz n his bf and the "yam yam."
We naik motor went to the small village,
em....forgot wat name ady.
Then yam yam n i was played water but for another 2 of them i really dunno wat they were doin while i played water v "Yam Yam".
Dun worry...Yam Yam is a straight guy.
Haha~~

I really cant tahan "Yam Yam" brought shampoo n hair gel to the waterfall for mandi.
Aiyo, i was like i think he wanted to pulluted the water...
Anyway, Yam Yam has done sumthin special n i successful to tested him....
Jacky u kalah lo.

Afterward, we went to KFC for makan.
And while my best frienz n i were eatin, "Yam Yam n my best firenz 's bf; mouth fightin" and both of us stil can enjoy the food even we Haha~~~
Finished the food then we naik motor to hz, in the journey both of them fighted again.
They not onli fight on mouth while ridin motor but also fight on body action....

Aiyo, Yam Yam was fetchin me and my life was like swt
Then, i jux keep on prayin the motor wil not go into longkang or river.
Coz his technic was not so gud but he jux keep on rushin.
i really can felt wat is feelin of heaven n hell...
Em..luckily, i can survive and now typin the jornal. Thanz GOd~~~

2nd day at labu (A Fucker kacau)

11, May 2007 Friday3:58 AM

today, We went to Jusco in seremban n had a lunch
Then sharin sum funny n crazy "real esperiences" and
we laughed loudy n took sum photos today.

After a movie , NEXT ,"yam yam"( a Straight guy) came to join us ,
and my frienz n i alwaz bully him while playin bowlin.
but i hv more chances to bully him coz i sat his car. haha~~~~
Actually i wil have a nice mood today.

But a Fucker come to kacau us....
Im from top of the point dropped to sad.
Wat u said ? Why u so concern about me this a few days ?
Walao...checkin me all the time...Is it i couldnt come to seremban ?
U r jux my EX !
U r not my bf..... Dun foget u hv a bf now....
I scare ur bf wil jealous soon...

U alwaz jux break ppl mood....
We were happy on the way to hv dinnerbut u were the Fucker come to kacau us...
Pls la....Cooperate a bit, MR Dxxxxx ! ! !
Wat u talked to my frienz....
U said i treated frienz beta than treated u in the pastand jux like ur appearance.
Ok well....I treated frienz is beta than u n love ur apperance,
how nice of these sentences from ur mouth...
Remember 26th Dec , 00.05am ?
Wat happened ?
We were robbed, the snatch thief was chasin u and i rushed to save ur life.
After that withdrawn my emergency money to see doctor.
Sumore spent more 2 days in MC. Remember ?

Sumore, opened a savin account v u in JAn 29 .
Wat we promised durin that time ?
Then i subsidies u to buy insurance...., remember ?
If u think i was treated u r toy then u continue to think of it la...
I dun believe my frienz no eyes to judge, sumore the god dunno how to judge....
why we break up hor ?

Bcoz of ur jealousy...until now u hv a bf u stil need to
"So concern" where am i sumore need to call my frienz n check me.
If u really not syok can come to find me.
Dun disturb my frienz....It is concern about 2 of us.
If u r thinkin i didnt love u in the past and treated u as a toy then jux let it be la.
Im not goin to fight v u, coz it is wastin my time, enegry n money to fight v u.
Wat for ? Let the frienz that knw the whole real story to judge.
U can say watever u like as long as ur mouth stil avaiable....

Aiyo, forget to shout u dim~~~
U said wat ah...tel the whole world la...need to advertist ?
U jux scare the whole world is too peace.
Alwaz do sumthin til we scare of u.I beg u la, dennis.
Stop ur movement la...
Past is an experience, learn from experience n from mistake.

1st day at Labu

Wakaka~~~ Jux came bec from "naik motor" v my buddy n his frienz...
So nice man....jux now i naik the honda 70, walao man~~
it was like gajah naik tikus...
I jux like the the "kampung boi" go bec to kampung...

On the small benkok road, i was "high" on it.
Sumore chasin v the "ayam" (Real ayam not human being)
then lookin at the kambing....

Em... best we round n round the small kampung kampung....
i can c a lot of thingd n feel the fresh air....
Em...jux now i did a "pump water" action while a malay lady was walkin on the road...
then both of them sweat n laugh loudly....
It was like Em....nice man~~~

After finished ot we went to makan,we order, a "gong bow chicken" ,
"fook gin mee", "wa tan yin yong" and a goreng "pan mee"...
walao...crazy man~~~In life there is not many thingd a afrraid...
The most scary animal in life is "Anjing."
I really dun like dog...except hotdog.. Haiz..no choice la. alwaz bully by them
Then fine lo...they knw weakness..
Ok lo..my frienz fed the dog while we were eatin at the hawker there.
Walao...tak boleh tahan .

i really afraid the dog v eat me....
my best buddy he alwaz kacau me and even the kambing was crozin the road n shout at me "there is a fod therE" then 2 legs pit on the motor and avoid to kena gigit~~~
When we bec hz and u knw wat frienz did ?
He goes to open the cate and the dog came over me...
WALAO~~~I fly into the house n tutp the gate quickly while shoutin.
The whole family members were stadin at outside gossip i think ~~
Then i hv done so "pai sek" thing is i shoutin.........
Em...funny man~~~Syok ya~~~~enak ya...
But kurang a thing lo....if got a bao bei go v me then prefect but......
Em...Next time hope can bring my Bao Bei go there oh~.~
Who is my bao bei leh~~~ ^OO^
Bao Bei @ Chu Chu
May 09, 2007

^o^ Bao Bei & Chu Chu ^oo^

Last Nitez had a conversation v sumone....
Sumone told me there is nothin much that we can hold if the fact was fallen down on us....and yet we couldnt expect wat is goin to happen next.

Maybe u had a life that u can hold "the closeRest" hands into the end of life but it is only a plan. U can dreamz of it but u hv to do it together....
One hand is could clap a single sound ~~~
There is only 2 hands able to do it, a nice sound.

Sumone told me, "i dunno do i hv the fate to hv "Hang Fook"..."
But there is noone wishes to be alone in his or her life.
Maybe sumtime u hear from ur frienz that "Hang Fook" is need ur ownself go to grab
but for me i dun think it so.
"Hang Fook" is determine 2 persons in a life,
both of them need to build up together n grab it into their small shelter heart....

Sumone told me, "Age is a generation gap in any relationship especially in loveship."
I couldnt expect wat we can get bec after we sacrifice in lovehip.
Bcoz the spirit that we sacrifice is worth for u n me...that's enough.
Not only that, maturity is more important in loveship...
imagine if a 30ages, MR has 18 years old minded and wat wil it be in the relationship if he together v a 28 girl ?
Age is onli a skin, but personality is the eternality.
A person whom has a gud personality no matter how far he goes there is sum admirers......
and jux pray hard that the person is knowing wat he or she is doin and given a gud decision in every barry...
Hope there is a miracle....
^o^ Bao Bei & Chu Chu ^oo^
@Copyright@

A death of 100 days

"Lovin" is leaving me 7 seasons..
I stil stayin in the circleIm waitin there is a miracle
I've left ur name on the palm of heart
The old folk is appear tonitez
Im the idiot standin on the darkness of street
The music is holdin hard my memoryland
Im stay a nitez v the music again
The melody is biting my heart
Tonitez the cold wind has taken away ur foot steps
The freeze fingers is bleeding its no more energy to touch ur face
The freeze heart is coldits no more beating
The tears is dryits no more feelin
The boarder is startin blur
Do not tell me it was a lie
Do not tell me it was a joke
Do not tell me it was an experience
I hv been startin make a distance v u
I hv been stopin to tk breath on the air
I hv been settin a death for uI need wait for 100 days
Im sure the 100 days will be reachin208 days granted me to stay for 100 days
Im sure after the 100 days there is a new life
The 208 days wil be relieved
Im sure there is a heaven after 100 days
The 208 days wont given me a pain of hell
Stand up now
Given me a vitamin for the heart
Stand up now
Givenv me a new life
Stand up now
Given me a new born
Hope there is no pain, no hurt....
Pray hard for standin in the circle of 100 days......

May 04, 2007

208days ENDED....

The time is runnin
But ur love was stopped 208 days..........
4992 hours......
299520 seconds....
The time told me:
Love to sumone The feelin of "lovin" u
It could not express
I love u
I miss u
These were past for u
The time wasnt continue into the "lovin"At the end,
a word "break up" is decided to seperate us
Heart is not dare to tell the time
Tears is not dare to see ur leavin shadowLife is become a darkness space
The painful of Face is wearin mask
Tear is wearin mask
Smile to u and say "gudbye"
I knw u r hurt
I knw u r pain
But i silent a nitez
I hear ur hurt
I hear ur painIt is late.....
I desire to scoll bec clock
I wake up from the nightmare
I try to pray hard I try to do everythinIt is useless.....
I onli can wish u.... Wish ur dreamz come true
May 04, 2007

Wrong.....

Someone says love is replace the incomplete of us
I Believe
SOmeone says love is a perfect
I Believe
Someone says love is a medicine of miracle life
I Believe
If i say there is noone can redeem your love
Do u believe ?
If i say there is noone is perfect
Do u Believe ?
If i say love is a poison medicine
Do u believe ?
How much of love u loved me
Could u have an answer in your heart ?
How much of life u spent on me
Could u count the days, the minutes, the seconds ?
How much of memories u left on heartland Could u measure heart beat ?
Is there any measurement able to measure pain of missing
Is there anyone able heal heart on time ?
Is there u r the one still love me ?
Time is wrong.....love is wrong....wat is the corect ?
April 28, 2007

Manakah saatku, nasibku...

Bukan lama Ku cinta pada mu
Nampaknya usang gambar masih dalam ingatanku
Betapa lama kita bersama-sama dalam perjuangan,
Bukan jauh aku berpisah dengan kamu
Nampaknya ada jarak dalam hatiku
Siapa yang berjanji menjadikan bayangku,
Bukan banyak hari ku nangis
Nampaknya tiada sesiapa menahankan hakisan titisan air mataku
Dengarlah saura cerau darah yang menjejaskan hatiku,
Bukan lagi masa berpisahkan kita
Nampaknya tiada sebarng boleh mangantikan saat hatiku,
Dengarlah gerakan pedih hatiku,
Bukan lagi hari masa saat yang bertunggu-tunggu
Nampaknya hari dah berdekat
Hari ini ku tahu cinta tiada sempurnakan lagi.....
Manakah saatku, nasibku......

April 28, 2007

Tanpa Andaian

Tanpa Andaian

Tanpa tahuan bilaku rindu padamu
Tanpa tahuan bilaku cinta padamu,
Tiada rasa, Tiada jarakKedahagaan senatiasa dalam hatiku,
Tiada sakit, Tiada panasKelesaan menebuskan roma-romaku,
kehilangan tulisanmu dalam ingatanku
Kabus pedar penuhkan Mataku,
Kehilangan suaramu dalam bayangku
Pedih air mata penuhkan Hatikun,
Bilakan anda pulang dalam hatikuBilakah anda kembali dalam peluhku,
Bilakah anda mendekatkan hatiku yang tanpa andaian....
andian.... Bilakah

April 27, 2007

Cinta Seperti Dulu

Cinta Seperti Dulu

Rasa tegap,
jikalau ada jiwamu,
Rasa lembap,
jikalau ada lembutanmu,
Rasa selesa,
jikalau ada sentuhanmu,
Rasa cinta,
jikalau adamu,
Agak cinta akan rasakan seperti dulu,
Manakah saatku cinta pada muKu dah lupa,
Agak cinta akan pulang seperti dulu....
Cinta seperti dulu....

April 27, 2007

Let's have a trial.....

Wat is Gud and Wat is bad ? It's an easy way to differentiate but sumtime i really cant differentiate wat is gud & bad. Hv u come to tot of this ? Hv u met up the way u solve is cant differentiate either is a gud way or bad way for u to step in....
I hv met up a case is related to loveship but sure the person is not me. Hehe~~~ Let treat the person is A.
One day A meet up a guy in a party and they start to know each and other. At the same day, the guy says "I like this gal" and they start their loveship, maybe we can say this as "Yat Kin Chong Cheng". They have a promise btw each and other when they start the relationshipn and the promise is "Let we hv a 3 months Trial in this relationship". With this promise, A couldnt diffentiate "Did she choose a wrong way or gud way" ? At the middle of the trial, A starts to lose herself in the loveship. A couldnt taste the happyness of love, A Couldnt get the warm from her lover. At the same time, A is lookin for frienz to find out the problem and try to solve it. She keeps tryin to cheer up herself and given a lot of chance for the guy but at the end A gets nothin. At the end of the day, she lost this war.....
For another case, this a bit simliar v the previous one.Let treat the person is B.
One day, B breaks up v her bf and they come out v an idea, "Let's we have a break up trial" ! Is new for me, but maybe i outdated o wat la~~~ "Break up trial meanz try to "repair" loveship in a given of time period". They need to knw more each and other v given more time ? Wat r they doin ? Shall we say they are in relationship ? This is only a qustion mark for us to think about this.
For personal view, i think that sumtime we really cannot control anythin. We desire to love sumone and a person loves us as well. We are trying to find any excuse and any ways to solve our problems. We scare to lose in a loveship and we are trying to "repair" ourselves. For eg, they come out v a "Trial" to solve problem... Is late to do it ? anyone knw ? There's no an accurate answer for u. We really cannot differetiate gud or bad in our life sumtime......i jux can pray and hope this is a gud way for u...
Wat do you think ?

March 12, 2007

Life Without Loong Foong Kok

Haiz...these few days feel very sian in kampar especially in the morning.
Ever since my college reopens, I found out I had lost my mood and very hate to attend classes. Em... u knw why ?

Coz since Monday my favourite restaurant was closed and today (saturday) only reopens.
I had waited for a few days n miss this place very much.....
it caused me to feel moody every mornin n i started bcome crazy and my brain kept thinkin "Where to eat" ? "Wat to eat" ? durin class.
So kepala sakit~~~ This problem drills to my brain. It made me go mad.....

Everytime I go to Loong Foong Kok (LFK) Restaurant sure will order a bowl tom yam and kacau around there especially the aunty who takes the drinks order. Em...this week Loong Foong Kok was closed for 5 consecutive days, my life was turned into darkness and no mood to tk my bfast. Remember everytime when i sat v my frienz, bear bear n chan hou them. Before Goin to break (mornin), i will ask bear bear "bear bear, we very long time don go to LFK ; then bear bear sure answer coldly "ya lo, very long time. Yesterday we jux went there..." Afterwards, Chan Hou, Teik Hou and Jennifer are sweat there...... Haha~~~~

It's ok... this is my favourite place. When we reach there, the 1st thing they will ask; "belum order your tom yam ah " ? HAha~~~ Afterwards,sumtimes they order "chicken rice" and there is a worker who keeps and wash the dishes and we named her as "Siti Nurhalima" and we hv created a nice background for her. One day, i questioned bear bear "Do you knw Siti Nurhalima is Siti Nurhaliza's mother" and he answered "Yeah Meh" ? Then, i continued "Last time Siti Nurhalima was an ex-Miss World winner but now cuci pinggan and Jennifer answered surprisingly "Wah..why she comes here to cuci pinggan so "cham"?. Then i said "No Choice loh"...... Haha~~~

After this, i said i jux kiddin then they booed and me "Cheh.....tipu punya." They kept on scoldin...but now we always go there to tk our bfast and sumtime they complained "No other place to eat, is it?" then i replied "No ah...we long time din go to LFK liao" and they sweat again.....Haha~~~

So happy, LFK reopens today....so nice. Can kacau the aunty again and chatting like monkey at there. Wakaka~~~ Monday sure i go bec v my classmates(Satu Gang). Life without Loong Foong Kok will lead me suffering....
March 10, 2007

The Right time to start loveship

This is jux my personal opinion n jux a relaz n funny diary to share v u. Hope that u can enjoy it..... Shouldn't I or Should I ?
These are the answers for us to choose in most of the time~~~~
But then, im sure that most of the ppl alwaz tk this in their single life especially they are singing "Mr Lonely" ~~~

Em......let me tell u a gud way la. As we knw that we have to build a foundation before starting the relationship. If can go to buy a "tiga 5" buku to write down wat his or her general personal biodata la.Haha ~ ~ ~
Then, sumtime ppl ask when is a suitable time.... Em, go to see ur calender now. Unfortunately, now is not a gud time. U knw why ? Coz Xmas, NEw Year, Velentine's day and Chinese New Years. All big celebrations ady gone.

For my personally, i think the best time to start a relationship is in october, coz at the first 2 months sure very sweet jux as sweet as "Sugar stick bean"...Then when Xmas come, wah.....got gift leh. After this can go to see firework when in New Year Eve... (u knw la, at the end of the years many holidays can celebrate v ur lover oso sumore if u r workin maybe hv extra bonus then u say la " u fatt or not" ??? )Em...after this velentine's day comes, sumore can celebrate v ur half.

Then after that, Chinese New Year is come ; B4 it comes u knw la, ur lover sure buy new clothing. when he buy sure u pun ada lo. (happy tak happy) HA HA~~~~ Then, if u go to ur lover hometown together, i think this year u wont "Fatt" i oso cannt believe. why ? Coz u knw la, go to visiting ur another half's parents & the relatives' i think u hv to prepare a "black color rubbish plastic beg" to keep ur Ang Pau; if not ur pants pun jatuh coz too heavy & too much....Haha~~~ Anyway, if this piggy year the couple couple have brought their kekasih balik sure "Gemuk balik", if pocket not gemuk i think ur body shape pun ada sikit gemuk la...Haha~~~

So that ...i think the best time to start a relationship is in october coz for the coming days so many big celebrations if ur lover tak boleh buat, i think is time to considerate "Wat is happenin now" ~~~ I am here not saying that other time, day , month cannot start the relationship. Coz if u start the in october is the best time to start relationhip and the probility to success is more higher...If not compare start after CNY, wat is the big celebration ? 1st celebration is "Cheng Ming". SEE ~ ~ ~ "Choi", remindin who oh....? Ur Ex ? ! ! ! Then, "Good Friday", aiyo ...nak puasa ka ?

Afterwards, This sultan Bday, that Sultan Bday... None of ur bisness oso. MAybe come to ur Bday u may hv a bit chance to celebrate v ur lover but if lonf distance n without holiday or ur lover is having exam durin that time, i think u go to buy a "pau" for urself la.... Em..then come to labour day or national day, i think u jux can company ur lover tidur n jux a simple meal as usual. But maybe u have a special lover jux like a bit different' ur lover is india and u r chinese; then i think u wil a bit suffer coz they talkin B.Tamil and u jux knw "Ah Nei Ah Nei" then habis ady lo ...

Sumore if ur lover is Malay then u r chinese then u r suffer oso, they bawa u balik kampung & u jux sit a there to face ur lover's siblings; i think u oso cannot recognize them (coz they can marry maximum 4 wives, and one wife a few "babies" i think u ady pening kepala).

Anyway, im not teachin u start relationship in october jux bcoz there are a lot of unforgetable days, for eg: Xmas, New YEar, Valentine's day, China Valentine's day and CNY as well. If not u hv to wait long time to celebrate lo if u start after CNY.....haha~~~Jux given an idea n im not looking down those couple started after CNY...... anyway, keep commitment in ur relationship is the best choice.
March 07, 2007

Any reason to love you ?

If one day a gal asks u, "why u love me, u love me wat" ?
Then the guy says. " i love u and there is no reason but i can prove to u".
After this the gal asks again, "why my frienz's bf can list out the reasons his bf loves her but u can; i dunno i wan u tell me the reason" !

Then her bf said, i like ur sweet voice, ur carin, ur smile and ur any moments....
After a few days this gal is meet an accident & she couldnt wake up forever. The guy put a tear letter on her shoulder....

In this tear letter:
Bcoz u r pretty so i love u. But now r u pretty ? NO, so i dun love you.
Bcoz ur voice is sweet so i love u. But can u open ur mouth now ? No, so i dun love you.
Bcoz u r caring me so i love u. But can u present it out now ? No, i dun love you.
Bcoz of ur sweet smile and ur every moment touch my heart so i love u. But now can u smile ? Can u move ? No, so i dun love you.
"If i love u have a reason i think u dunno have any reasons for me to love u anymore, so i dun love u. But i love u have no reason so i still love u". The guy is waiting for her now......will she wake up ? Is it love a person is without any reasons ?

Let we come bec here...I think this scenario alwaz happen in couple surrounding, sumtime ppl treat this is a childish question but unfotunately to tell u, Yes. ! ! !

Why ? ? ? Coz we can easily to list out we dun love a person but cant say any reasons that we love a person. Love a person is a feeling. Dun love a person is a fact but there is sum feeling there...

March 07, 2007

『緣』

人與人的相遇就像是一個隨機抽樣在不同的時間空間之中.....
彼此相遇....有些時候...你會發現..你一開始最看不順眼的人
竟然是你的好友.......因為你發現了他的好....
有時候...你根本不想去認識一個人....
你覺得無趣後來你卻發現...... 他是你想要認識的那種人...
有時候.....你非常喜歡一個人....
但是你知道...你們根本不能在一起....
愛你的人....你不愛..
你不愛的人...卻是那樣的愛你....
這複雜的習題卻又如此的跟著我們....
解不開也算不清人家說在對的時間愛一個人...你是幸福的...
在錯的空間遇到一個人....你是痛苦的......
有些人你就是有一種一見如故的感受有些人你怎樣就是說不上幾句話像是一部公車　大家在這一站上車　卻在另一站下車事事總是充滿變數與未知

曾經感情很好的朋友　即使感覺還在可是大家都有自己的事情而疏離所以大家要珍惜每次都偶然邂逅因為你根本不知道　
錯過了這次你跟他會在哪個空間在相遇也許是你們唯一一次的相遇緣是個很奇怪的東西它可以讓在相距數千公里外的人在同一處相遇這是你我無法想像的到的但　它就是這樣可是若是沒在適當時機好好把握也許就再也沒機會了......
February 04, 2007

男人永远不懂，你说分手只是为了被挽留！

男人永远不懂：你说分手是为了被挽留! 相爱的时候，你会一次次地提出：我们分手吧！男人只是本能的愤怒，猜疑你是不是因为另有新欢而背叛了他，他会气恼你的绝情而大声呵斥你，在你真正转身地那一刻，男人除了悲愤地看着你的背影离去而没有一句挽留！你一路上一直期待男人会跑上来，拉着你的手，挽留你，说声：宝贝，我爱你！别走！等到泪已尽，仍然听不到任何声响，爱情就这样夭折了！

男人怎懂你？说分手只是为了被挽留！ 每一次说分手，你都会很害怕，怕你们会真的离去，每一次说分手，你都很期待，期待你们的挽留，让你知道你在乎他，你舍不得他走，每一次说分手，你都很无奈，你的一些微妙变化让你不再肯定你是否还那样爱他，所以他拿放弃做赌注，如果输了，只是你真的不够爱他！每一次当分手成了事实，你会伤心欲绝，为什么他不懂你的心思？ 你说分手，只是真的爱他！只是太在乎他！只是你的一些微妙变化让你恐慌！让你心不安！还是你想弄明白你是否还爱着他？ 　　

你以为，爱情的迷茫不肯定会让自己有足够的勇气，做好准备等待男人最糟糕的答案，你以为爱情就象一个开关，啪地一声打开，啪地一声关闭，你以为及时拨掉电源就可以幸免于毁灭，你以为分手可以解决所有的困惑、痛苦、忧郁，你以为缓慢的生长可以愈合此处的断裂，你以为你说分手他会挽留你！ 　　

然而这都是只你的一相情愿，多少此时的男人是默默看着自己心爱的人离去而没有挽留？你的心凉了，为什么男人不懂你的心思？ 　　
你只有独自在黑夜中哼着悲曲，用泪水把心中的苦涩一遍遍洗刷……

你不够爱我也许某一天 　

我想起你也是一件很远很远的事
　　
那一天，在未来的未来 　　

再远处，是衰老，更远处，是死亡！ 　　

近处是分手，其实是真的爱你，太害怕失去你！

只是你永远不懂！还是不懂！ 　　

命中注定无法永远！
人永远不懂
February 04, 2007

男人永远不懂，你说分手只是为了被挽留！

男人永远不懂：你说分手是为了被挽留! 相爱的时候，你会一次次地提出：我们分手吧！男人只是本能的愤怒，猜疑你是不是因为另有新欢而背叛了他，他会气恼你的绝情而大声呵斥你，在你真正转身地那一刻，男人除了悲愤地看着你的背影离去而没有一句挽留！你一路上一直期待男人会跑上来，拉着你的手，挽留你，说声：宝贝，我爱你！别走！等到泪已尽，仍然听不到任何声响，爱情就这样夭折了！

男人怎懂你？说分手只是为了被挽留！ 每一次说分手，你都会很害怕，怕你们会真的离去，每一次说分手，你都很期待，期待你们的挽留，让你知道你在乎他，你舍不得他走，每一次说分手，你都很无奈，你的一些微妙变化让你不再肯定你是否还那样爱他，所以他拿放弃做赌注，如果输了，只是你真的不够爱他！每一次当分手成了事实，你会伤心欲绝，为什么他不懂你的心思？ 你说分手，只是真的爱他！只是太在乎他！只是你的一些微妙变化让你恐慌！让你心不安！还是你想弄明白你是否还爱着他？ 　　

你以为，爱情的迷茫不肯定会让自己有足够的勇气，做好准备等待男人最糟糕的答案，你以为爱情就象一个开关，啪地一声打开，啪地一声关闭，你以为及时拨掉电源就可以幸免于毁灭，你以为分手可以解决所有的困惑、痛苦、忧郁，你以为缓慢的生长可以愈合此处的断裂，你以为你说分手他会挽留你！ 　　

然而这都是只你的一相情愿，多少此时的男人是默默看着自己心爱的人离去而没有挽留？你的心凉了，为什么男人不懂你的心思？ 　　
你只有独自在黑夜中哼着悲曲，用泪水把心中的苦涩一遍遍洗刷……

你不够爱我也许某一天 　

我想起你也是一件很远很远的事
　　
那一天，在未来的未来 　　

再远处，是衰老，更远处，是死亡！ 　　

近处是分手，其实是真的爱你，太害怕失去你！

只是你永远不懂！还是不懂！ 　　

命中注定无法永远！
人永远不懂
February 04, 2007

原來，很愛很愛的感覺，是要在一起經歷了許多事情之後才會發現的。

February 04, 2007
年少時候，我們是不肯隨便愛上一個人的。當一個人愛上了我，而我也覺得他不錯。那並不代表我會選擇他。是的，他和我很談得來，我們相處融洽，他遷就我、疼我，他的條件很好。然而，我要找一個我很愛很愛他的人，我才會談戀愛。當那個被拒絕的人可憐兮兮的問我：「你要找一個很愛很愛的人？怎樣才算是很愛很愛？」我沒法回答他，因為我自己也不知道。我怎會知道呢？那個人還沒有出現。我相信，我早晚會遇上他的。所以，在遇上他之前，我不會隨便愛上別人。我要守候他來臨。

那個時候，我們總是以為，我們會找到一個自己很愛很愛的人。後來，當我們猛然回首，我們才會明白自己曾經多麼的天真。假如從來沒有開始，你怎知道自己很愛很愛那個人？

原來，很愛很愛的感覺，是要在一起經歷了許多事情之後才會發現的。又或者，你一輩子也找不到一個你很愛很愛他的人。你只能找到你很愛或你愛的人。他還沒到達讓你很愛很愛的地步。

年少的時候，我們期待的那份很愛很愛的深情，也不過是在情竇初開時，無知的執著和幻想。每個人心中都有一片永不之地。既然不可以永不長大，但願永不蒼老。永不蒼老也是奢望，那麼，可否永不孤單、永不害怕、永不憂傷、永不貧窮，永不痛苦？有一天，當我們幸福地在心中那片永不之地登陸，我們或許還是希望永不失去。忘掉歲月，忘掉寂寞，忘掉你的壞，我們永不永不說再見。

有時候真的會很想忘記一件事、一個人。只是，想往往比做的容易；有時候真的常說要放棄一件事、一個人。但是，說往往比做的輕易。可能每一個人都希望能夠找到自己心中百分百的伴侶，一個會讓你很愛很愛的人，可是，有沒有人想過這樣一個問題：真正能帶給你幸福和快樂的是你心中尋找已久的百分百伴侶，還是…已經待在你身旁默默對你付出很久的那個人。這個問題就像問你：「覺得愛人與被愛哪一個會比較幸福」一樣，答案一直都在你心中。失去比得不到更加痛苦 因為，得不到的永遠都是幻化的美好，甚至連痛都不甚真實。但是，曾經擁有而後卻失去…才會讓你感受真正的痛及後悔。

只希望每一個人都能好好的看看身旁對你好、對你付出的人，你能想像有一天他不再待在你身邊、不再對你噓寒問暖、不再對你關懷之時，你…會如何？
原來，很愛很愛的感覺，是要在一起經歷了許多事情之後才會發現的。

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February 04, 2007

Pray for February.....

Do u like February ! ! !
I think most of the people they like February but surely sum r not. For the time being, in february has a lot of benifits for us especially who hasnt married yet ---- > me (haha)

Total up the days in February is only 28 days and for those who r workin sure happy la~~~ Can get the salary after work for 28 days compare with other months, 30 or 31 days. Sumore this month can get the Angpau or bonus from ur boss. Happy enaf la~~~~
But dun happy too much, when u go bec to hztown ur parents will ask u for money or Angpau (is time to pay bec money, sad). If u more unlucky, ur younger sister or brother may ask u sum money to buy new year clothes. Sad Enaf~~~~~

For those who hasnt married like me (ada orang marah nanti), can get the angpau in chinese new year and wear a new year clothes. You also can go to travel in this comin days oh...... ! ! !
Em...,Police wil happy oso. Coz during CNY a lot of ppl will break the law. if u r "lucky", u may have a new car photo send to ur house (From Polis Diraja Msia). If not, the policemen stomach is getting bigger n bigger coz thanz for our "Rakyat-rakyat" support their breakfast (Kopi O). Take care oh~~~~

For those who r in relationship sure will celebrate valentine's day in sumwhere else la. Hear that a lot of ppl may go to genting highlands celebrate. I am here pray for u, i really scare u will send me a big "Boom " after a few months. Pls control the pregnancy in Msia.... Haha
Anyway, im here wish u all hv a nice memories in February oh.

But a few things need to take note r ; take care of ur expenses, plan before goin to travel, control the pregnancy in Msia. And hope u all "peng peng onn onn" , epecially those who r goin to genting highland i should pray more. ~~~

February 02, 2007

The Nineth slide of diary

The beauty of love is not as perfect as we thought sumtime.
But the answer is how r we goin to join the spirtual of love together. The "spiritual"communication btw each n other is takin part in both of ur life.
One day, Jon is walkin a dark corridor and the darkness of shadow is following his heart beat. The beauty of the crsytal key chain is goin to turn to a dark pearl. The dark pearl is printed his lover's diary. He is keepin his step to home with a question mark. When he reach home the 1st move is he wana find the diary. He remember his lover told him that this diary is only for him before he left.

"Oops....yes, i found u."The dust is covered all the book and there is a lock. He couldnt open the diary even he uses the key to open it. Jon is waiting until 12 o'clock, a sharpen of moon light is sending a key in front of the diary. Finally, one year....i able to wait for u.

"Pak", the first slide of the diary is written down...."Yeah~~~ ! ! ! i can get my lou gong finally. I really suprised that He came to find me today and now he is jux bside me, His Q Q face i really like it very much oh.... HAHA ! ! ! Em...i gonna to company to hv a nice dreamz la."

Second slide, "Em....so tired today, we went to genting highland oh~~ With the a bowl of hot "bak gud teh", the warmness of jacket is lies on my shoulder. Im very touched, this is the 1st nice memory for me today. "Lou Po, eat "cha siew" la...., Em...i dun like cha siew i like "siew yok". "Ya meh, i tot u like cha siew; never mind la i go to buy for u." "No need la, it is ok to me." HA~~~~~ Even this small movement but i've jux eaten a big pork meal v him..... Muakz, lou gong.

Third slide, "He came to find me today oh, so happy." HA~~~ 2molo is Xmas day lo, wat wil he do ? So "gan jeong" oh..... I hope that he is able to give me a sweet memory to me tommorrow.

Fourth slide, "Jingle Belt ! Jingle Belt ~~~~". I can celebrate v him lo, he very naugthy oh. He lied to me he wont come to stay v me tonitez and mk me so sad. I've been waiting for 18 years, he is my 5th bf and there was no one celebrate Xmas v me except him tonitez. 2day "7 morinin 8 mornin", he went to visit his Grandmum and told me he is goin to stay a nitez there. ( "Gek si" me la ) Ha~~~ Em....finally around 8 sumthin we met in KL sentral,the orange yellow of light is very nice & the 2 seat table with the gud "Feng Sui" at the McD. (our "pak tou" place oh) He gave me a red photo frame and there is return sum "yok ma" word, dun tell u. Ha~~~ Blek ! ! ! Then we jux came bec from sg wang to celebrate Xmas eve, tired oh... (Did i lose my virgin, He he ~~~ )

Fifth slide, "i dun wan say him anymore, he is the 1st guy mk me cry a lot. This time he mk me cry until my tissu paper not enaf(Gotta buy tissu soon). Today mornin, after i woke up and i saw a pack of socks. when i saw it i ady happy until the mouth can stop. He "hou sui" oh, he put the mikey pendrive inside the socks. "NG, make me cry like XXX. Em.....i love him oh.

Sixth slide, "Aiyo, so "sui" today. Jux touched at 12.00mdnitez, we robbed by snatch thieves. His phone was robbed and my kepala feel dizzy. Em....incredible Xmas day for me. Haiz...jux came bec from hospital, he said wana go bec to skul. A bit sad, hope he can stay one more day..... Dunno how tonitez, will he ?

Seven slide, "Sorry, im sorry...." I've broken the necklace today. His heart is broken...... i hv broken the promise, i am sorry. He told me he scare of the gift that i given to him. He jux said "Have u ever though of the how much of painful of heart that i need to afford when u pulled the necklace on my neck, i rather than i buy the necklace for us. At least i wont destroy it, because i know how to appreciate it. But u ?" He has left the broken necklace on me......

Eight slide, "How much days that i am counting is how much love that i love u for every second" and i have chosen my life with u. I love you.... When Are You Comin beck tonitez ? Does this is the last slide of us....

Nineth slide, 爱是他在的时候，眼睛里只有他一人；他不在的时候，一切都带有他的影子。

February 01, 2007

Love is accross gender of sex with eternity life.

Men (gals & boys) is desire to love and beloved....
Have u realized that there is no one wil rejecte sumone to love him or her especially there is the first time for them. As the love knowledge that they know is love is perfect without any black dot on the shape of love. For those who hv had experiences before they wont step much when he or she start the relationhip in the beggining coz they hv been being hurt and couldnot recovery in the short time period but they hv moved a big step.

Why love is attracted by men ? Cares & love will come to u if u r willing to recieve it. When the feeling is come on u, u start to sweet & smile everday and u r really hope that he or she as ur spouse would take the half of ur life and u would not lonely again. At least this moment is able to turn ur eyes to blind (That's why we known love as blind).

I am sure that everyone is desire to hv this kind of relationship but sum may not get. There are sum reasons behind there.
1.Could not forget the previous "EX"
2. Scare there is no return at the end
3. Keep trying to get the perfect half
4. Busy life
5. Stress from all the factors
6.Getting bored in relationship
7. Lack of understanding
8. Other reasons....

There is noone hopes their half say "bye bye" in their loveship coz at least one of them wil being hurt deeply. Men sumtime is greedy, they are choosy; they try to get the perfect one but at the end there is nil in their life. Before start in relationship, did u ask urself r u willing to sacrifice and do not ask for "r u deserve" ~~~

Sumtime i see my frienz change their bf or gf like nothin. You r keeping looking for a better one but is ur partner being the same attitude, at the end u miss the one whom really is ur truth lover. Or sumtime u will notice ur frienz scare to love or beloved coz they have a evil in their heart, they could not forget the previous loveship and scare there is no return at the end.

A busy life is oso one of the main reasons may cause u being lonely again. With the stress from it and from other factors, once again quarrel is never end. At last both of u could not accept each other and start to get bored in relationship. At this moment, u r keepin ask urself how much that he or she understand u but did u ask urself how much that u know him or her ?

Maybe sumtime u r too understand him or her OR u really dunnot understand wat he or she WANTS AND NEEDS but did u put afford to solve it ? Except all these reasons, they may other reasons...
Before start a relationship pls ask urself, r u willing then u only ask for deserve. Dun jux ask for try if not u r only get a cry at the end.... Many ppl r cryin at the end but u should ask urself "Have u put afford in the relationship, if yes, U r not the loser coz u hv had tried. If not, u dun blame him or she ; u have to blame urself, chance is only once why din u appreciated it".

If everyone can learn from mistake there is a smile for u, maybe sumone is being hurt now but i woke up and learning from the bottom with step by step. The syllabus of love is never end.....

Love is across gender of sex with eternity life.
真正的爱情，是在能爱的时候，懂得珍惜 真正的爱情，是在无法爱的时候，懂得放手 请在珍惜的时候,好好去爱 在放手的时候,好好祝福

January 27, 2007

As Long as u love

Sick !!! ~~~~ A sickness in our society nowadays.....
As common i hear "As long as i have a person , who willing to love me and care me. There is enaf for me ~~~ " ! ! !

Alamak~~~~ can u tahan of it ? Em, i was disappointed when one of my frienz told me. "i have a bf now but then i jux feel that there is nothin coz he is busy all the time. Sumtime he contact me one week only once. i knw he is busy but then is ok to me la. As long as there is a person loves me care me then ok la."

But then i said "love to each and other equally is important, if not it meanz that u r not confidence in this loveship and as well as urself." My frienz said " i dun have confidence for it and myself as well but then as long as he loves me then ok la and i wan the person loves me more than i love him."

I told my frienz that,"if u continue the day that as ur wish there is no result at the end since u r not young & not much time to mk fun with. And should considerate is this kind of relationship ables to give u a warm for ur journey of life." My frienz answered "i dun think so. i keep give each a chance.As u say it wont warm n longer... i know. I will see how, or maybe u wil see me marry one day".

Anyway, ur decision is alwaz appreciated by me even we have different views and i hope that u can seek a eternity loveship in ur life.

January 26, 2007
~THE END~

Chance is only once

Finally i have cut down my desire to enrol the course bravely, the cruelty heart was also deleted the all my desireable but it make me to recall bec the memories even my unwillingly heart is against my desire but my fingers is drawing the scenario of the broken heart without control.

Pierce by pierce is hurting my underskin, does anyone would like to hurt himself or herself by the sharpen finger touch. In this long journey, i have been drop off and up from the knowledge train and there are a lot of passengers are company me but some of them have chosen to drop off, some of them have chosen to continue the journey and even some of them leave me to choose another knowledge train. I asked myself, "am i the one make them far away from me ?" Or "i really to strict to them ?" I had stopped the train in the passed two seasons. I have no choice to choose, i jux chose the lazzy-faire as i really could not get bec the previous me and my young time is only a slide of the diary.

I really couldnt do well in the task; my spirit has forgotten the owner.....even how much that u hv done for them is jux only a hand that couldnt have a clap sound or only a pierce of white paper. Ur successful may have someone to praise u but if when u r failure the discmination eyes is laughin at ur stupid performance but have u asked bec ur ownelf ; did u give me a helpin hand in the task.

Ur poiniting fingers is only ponting bec to me, have u thought ur uncountable dirty poinitings is in my mindland. But at the end, u all have forgotten and i only have two hands to pick up the "tan of works" coz the trouble is only reconginse me. I really tired to do it again n again, I jux speechless~~~~keeping the smiles on the face without any problems but does anyone has gone through ur heart. Yes, there is only the one that u love to but he or she doesnt in this same knowledge train.

"They are using u only, pls wake up" said by my frienz. But then, do i have any choices ; i do not have. My perpective may look by someone but there is not the eternity.

Since from the beggining, i've planted the seed on the knowledge train land but there is only me to take care of it. When i knocked the door again n again but once there is only an empty house. I am tired to step in the train but i do not have a choice and there is no chance for me to try....... Today i have learnt a something new. "There is only a chance in this world, there is no second chance for u". I think this is one of the important lesson for the today me. Wat should i do in this unexpected realistic world, i think it is the truth "A Chance would not return in the second time".

Appreciate wat u r having now....it doesnt care u r in relationship, u r in working, u r studying but for sure it is suit to today world especially in this cruelty world.

Buddies, remember chance is only once; there is no second chance except u r the one stay in the dreamzland. For choice is only given by the chance. Wake up~~~~Start to bite the chances that u r have in every second from the bottom. The world is saying no to learn from the first mistake, the world is only showing appreciate the opportunity that ppl given to u.


January 23, 2007

Lonely no more....

I know the shinnin star is singing song and u r company the star sing togetherat at this sky nitez with the star shinnin
When you are at the night, there is no star and no light. The star is hide and there is no star in ur world. The star is given his shinning to the moon, there is only a moon can be shone in the darkness. The star is speechless when there is no enegry, no power to continue his shinnin face to u. U will not knw how much time the star will be recovered and the star itself too but u r holding his hands and walk together from this darkness sky to the blue sky.
Ur tears is flooded the darkness sky and the star is started tired, the star needs to hv a rest. Ur young would become a dust for the day night, ur hair will be faired but the star is given u the red heart.This is only a fanstasy world but it would be real in one day and the dark shadow would cover the shinning night and everthing turn to dark.
Maybe the shinnin of star is only a slide of shadow in ur eyes, the star didnt do well with his own task. The star is given up his life to the GOD, there is only GOD could be decided. No reason that being a barry for u against, the only thing u could blame is the star.
Even though the love in this world would not end but then there is a limitation, the star is tired n tired to shine again. He would rather to take a rest to decide the ways he would be gone through in his star's life. When the time is comin, the star doesnt have long time to stay v u, the star is only a slide in ur dairy.
How much time if the star leave u and would not stay in ur heart beat, noone is able to count for ur heart beat. The star is keepin to shine for u but if one day the star is goes to another corner of the earth, how r u goin to survive ? The star doesnt want u too stick to him, he knows if he is coloured the rainbow in ur dairy and u will blind when the rainbow colours are white and black.
The only can be stayed v u, is only the song. The song is only can be ur eternity and it only can be caught by ur spirit and ur soul. There is enough for u and as well as the star. The only song is given u a warm hand and u r not being lonely. "Love is being eternity"

January 23, 2007

The speechless of necklace

In a binary world, there are 1 and 0 as their symbol for their lifes……
1 is D and 0 is B.
There is a story begins, a necklace…..let me show u. Do u like this ? Ya, Mickey & Minnie r the love symbols of us.

When u wear it, u must tell me oh. D as usual wear the necklace to skul everday and B as well even though they are not same skul….Both of them are happy coz their relationship is getting better n better.

“I wana go bec” B says….. B is goin to take the Mickey necklace off to D. “Bak” ! ! ! D is pull the Mickey necklace from B’s heart. B feels the painful of his heart when D is pull his necklace from his neck and D is holdin it and says “This is urdesire to take it off”.

When D finished the word, D throws the Minnie necklace from 7 levels heights of condominium. The action was broke the dreamz of them…….. Does it worth to pull the heart from B ? His heart is broken and he feels that the meaningful of the necklace is strong even it is not valuable but then the love and care r remain in this necklace.

D says "if u step out the door and we end of this relationhip from this second starts". B did not care the warning word, he steps out.... After for a while D is trying hard to save the heart of B…..Does it work ? B wouldn’t the feeling, he jux knw the feeling for the necklace is getting lesser and lesser AND he scare to receive D present anymore. If sumone has given the present to u & destroy it in front of ur eyes when u hv the feeling of it…..

Now im wearing bec the same new necklace, does it work to get the same feeling ? I shouldn’t knw, I couldn’t knw and I really dunno why should I stand for this necklace…….Does it a true for me ?
Wat I hv to do is….Let me tk sum time to cure the painful of the necklace………


January 16, 2007

The meaning of love

你发觉了吗？爱的感觉总是在一开始时甜蜜，总觉得多了一个人陪，多了一个人帮你分担，你终于不再孤单了，因为至少有一个人想着你、恋着你，只要能在一起就是好的。

但是慢慢地，随着认识的加深，你开始发现了对方的缺点，于是问题一个接一个出现，你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，有人说爱情就像捡石，总想捡到一个适合自己的，但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？她适合你，那你又适合她吗？

其实，爱情应该像磨石子儿，或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么满意，但是请记住，人是有弹性的，很多事情是可以改变的，只要你有心，有勇气，与其到处去捡未知的石头，还不如将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨光，你开始磨了吗？很多人以为，是因为感情淡了，人才会变得懒惰，其实人是先被惰性征服，感惰才慢慢变淡的。

在某个聚餐的场合，有人提议多吃点虾对身体好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说：?3年前，当我老婆还是我女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她。现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，简直就是开玩笑，我连帮她夹菜都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳呢。?

难怪越来越多的人只想谈一辈子恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。如果每个人都懒得讲话，懒得倾听，懒得制造惊喜，懒得温柔体贴，那么夫妻之间，又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？所以请记住，有活力的爱情是需要适度殷勤来灌溉的，谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的。

有一对情侣，相约下班后去用餐，逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议延误了，当她冒雨赶到时候已经迟到了30多分钟，她男朋友很不高兴地说："你每次都这样，现在我什么心情也没了，我以后再也不会等你了！" 刹那间，女孩的心决堤崩溃了，她在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了。

同样，在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境，女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，她的男朋友说："我想你一定忙坏了吧？" 接着他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套披在女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪却是温馨幸福的。你体会到了吗？其实爱恨往往只在我们的一念之间！

爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可能只是在于你心境的转变罢了。如果有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错，那并不代表你会选择他。我们总说："我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。" 但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，你却无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。

没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。可是后来，当我们猛然回首，才发觉自己曾经多么天真。假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之后才会发现的。每个人都希望找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，但是你有没有想过，在你身边早有人对你默默付出很久了，只是你没有发觉而已。

所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧，他或许已经等你很久了。当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。所有的期待和希望都只有七八分，剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能给对方造成沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分。

如果你正在为爱迷惘，下面这段话或许可以给你一些启示：爱一个人，要了解也要开解；要道歉也要道谢；要认错也要改错；要体贴也要体谅；是接受而不是忍受；是宽容而不是纵容；是支持而不是支配；是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而不是控诉；是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求而不向对方诸多要求。可以浪漫，但不要浪费，不要随便牵手，更不要随便放手。


The meaning of love
2007.01.16

The Cruel of Love

APPRECIATE Remember a magic word --> "APPRECIATE"
Don't make mistake in love and marriage...
open your eyes and heart for someone who u feel could be with u all the hard and good times..

A student ask a teacher, Student : "What is love?" Teacher : "In order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: You can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick." The student went to the field, go through first row, he saw one big padi,but he wonders.... maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him.

Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he had missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty handed.

Teacher :"This is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when you later realize, you have already miss the person...."

Student : "What is marriage then?"

Teacher : "In order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: You can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick." The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.

Teacher : "This time you bring back a corn.... You look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

Appreciate wat we r havin now dun try to mk life to the end.....And sorry for the ONE who is being hurt......



Cruelty love
2006.12.19

Rasuah vs Saman

I dunno why......Why why why ! ! !
Except of bribering then there is a Fine....................

Haiz.....should i say lucky or bad lucky ? ? ? i think both of them, i oso got. U know why ! ! ! Tell u a nice story, it seems like a incredible & unbelieveable nice story......

1st Saman
i was form 5 if im not mitaken..... That time was like the scenario of film. Haiz......passed already, i dun wan say anythin.

2nd Saman
Jux happened in last sem, walao....that time so "gan jeong", jux kena in front of Ghany (Indian mamak restaurant - my favour restaurant). That day was on 9th of September 2006. Police shake shake his hand, "i think u know wat he wan". "come on, baby...."kamu tahu apa kamu salah". Wat should i say, but sure normally we jux say "TAK TAHU", rite ? ? ? Dun pretend la....im too but then that time i really did not know wat was goin on.

Ok lo, he said my motor light wasnt function but ok la... i accepted it. Coz i really dunno ma, jux like "so chai" let him write the saman to me but then he oso dun wan to rasuah....i really hv no choices, rite ? But then, i really miss the SAMAN..... u know WHY ????

I tell u ah...but dun laugh to me. it was the 1st time i've kept the saman until now - meanz belum bayar la. Coz it is so meaningful for me. i know u must say me crazy or kuku but then i ask u 1 thing is could u get a Saman on 9/9/2006 & the dateline is on 10/10/2006.
Sure ! ! ! U cant, rite ? sumore 10 of october is my birthday. See ! ! ! It is a meanigful SAMAN.

3rd RASUAH
Jux happened in my eyes..... Jux now i went out to top up my phone & when i was on the way to my house. A police was chasin me & "shake shake" his hand again - A fat police. Ya, parkin tepi ! Oh, my GOD ! ! ! This time i know wat was happened.

Em....same word. "kamu tahu apa salah" ? "Tak tahu" ! ! ! (This is only thing that we can communicate v Police). When i saw him, i really scare this time...The previous a few times; i was not scare. Coz my latest SAMAN havent paid yet. If kena again, i think my licence jux can "hang hang" in JPJ there.

Ok lo, i saw his stomach bigger than the indah water pool...... Then if a police asks u "macam mana" then u must know "macam ini" ! ! ! Wat is the "macam ini" ??? Macam ini = MONEY ! ! ! Ok lo, i said i've left 20 ringgit coz jux top up 30. Aiyo, tak boleh la...50 ringgit la.

Har.... ? ? ? "saya nak balik hztown wo" ! ! ! "Tak apa, kalao tak ada duit panggil bapa kamu bank in la....sini ada ATM machine di Petronas sana" (^~^)" ! ! ! Shit ! Shit ! Shit ! I really "cha dou", the police so nice, i dunno where he learnt it bec ! Really Dunno why the communication btw police & public jux sayin this kind of stuff. Should i laugh or cry in front of him ? Ok......well. I gave him 40 ringgit to settle it.

Should i say anythin ? Am i happy ? This time i really SAD ! ! ! IF u r SAD who the 1st 1 u think ? WHO WHO WHO ! ! !



2006.12.06

The Gap btw Heaven & Earth

When u r tired to tk revision..........sure u will take a rest ! ! !
When u r tired in relationship.........will u take a rest ? ? ?

When u r talk to a book......................r U readin ! ! !
When u r talk to someone ELSE............r U doin jealous ? ? ?

When u r care more on something............the result will be good ! ! !
When u r care more on a person............the result is "u r too annoyin" ? ? ?

When the movie showing a title "The End"....... u r happy that u finished it ! ! !
When the relationship is mention u "The End"......r u happy that u finished it ? ? ?

When a lecturer sick ........ u r happy that "no care" to school ! ! !
When u r sick................. r u happy that no one cares of u ? ? ?

When u r debate in school............u r gettin a prize ! ! !
When u r debate in relationship....u r gettin a slap ? ? ?

When u r free to sleep.................u r gettin relax in life ! ! !
When u r free in relationship........u r goin to crazy in life ? ? ?

When u r no money to study..............u r work hard to get schoorlaship ! ! !
When u r no money in relationship.......u r work hard to get nothin ? ? ?

When u r lonely at home ..............u r goin to listen MR LONELY ! ! !
When u r lonely in relationship .......u r goin to chance ur name to MR LONELY ? ? ?

When u r in the end of road...........u can return bec to ur startin point ! ! !
When u r in the end of relationship..u can return to startin point ? ? ?

From the above we could realize that how realistic of a human ! ! ! Are we human ? ? ? Ya, but then welcome to our realistic world.......EARTH - The gap between heaven & hell ! ! !


2006.11.22