Wait or Stop / “等” or 停留

Wait or Stop / “等” or 停留

“等” or 停留

Every mornin, we can sense the warmth of sun...
Every nitez , we can sense the coolness of moon...

In our reality...many times we do not realized or even do not even knw wat r we doing....

Sumtime, we really regret the decision that we have done a few days ago or even a few seconds ago. Everyday the darkness of nitez brigs u a frightening nightmare.
Sumtime, we angry and crazy to scold a person and jux like a mad or scare and lost direction like an idiot maybe the reason is we have no patient for sumthin.

A day
A couple come bec together from outside and both of them have jux taken meal. At nitez, the guy and the gal argue for their future. The guy has no patient, the gal has no direction and both of them are bring to the nitemare.

At the end, both of them have no patient to wait for the day comin...
Bcoz of that, the 3 years of loveship has been broken since that nitez....

Maybe of that, every time we desire to stop the time but the time doesnt wait for us. The time is stil changing, the white day cant stop the nite day coming... bcoz the world is moving.

No matter wat we have done, wat we decision that we have made... we could not blame to anyone or even the closer beside u. The only we could blame is us. Why dun we move at the right place ? Why dun we have patient at the right time ?

Everytime, the reason of break up is they havent no patient to wait for the day coming. They expected they have no future...they expected they have no mature enaf....Do they wait for the day coming ? or Maybe the day coming is 1 year, 2 years or even 10 years but we're human being...can we wait for their lover in the comin day ? We really have no a gud answer...

A time
I see, while a guys is waitin for their lover at the corner of the shop
and the fierce eyes of guy is lookin at his lover...Wah~~~So dangerous ! ! !
The guy is naggin and his lover is tryin to console the guy....Lovely seen~~~^0^

Maybe jux like an article i hv seen last time,
the writer said :
Love is replace the weaknesses of each and other. It does meanz the strength of love frm a person to replace the weakness of another. And it bcum a love, a completed love~~~~

I wanted "wait" for the time can "stop"....I have decided to stay in the sweet land...a sweet land...a wonderful land....Time could u stop bcoz of me ? Time could u wait for me ?
Wait or stop ? ? ?

“等”，其实人的一生一半的时间都是在等的。当然什么都可以说，等下班、等开饭、等发薪水、等拥有喜欢的东西、等爱的人。。。如果说时间可以停止，我希望永远都停留在这一刻，最甜蜜的时光。

“等” or 停留 " ? ? ?

Wat do u think ? ? ?

如果我是你的......爱埋藏在内心深处.

如果我是你的......爱埋藏在内心深处.

如果我是你的BF，我会要拉着你的手过马路，绝对不看来往的车辆。

如果我是你的BF，我会要你象小孩子一样牵着手晃来晃去，不时的让我转个360度，看我龇着牙骂你坏。

如果我是你的BF，我会笨手笨脚的帮织全羊毛的淡灰色围巾，虽然在开头的几排里你会发现有小洞，但是你也必须鼓励我说比恒源祥的还精致。

如果我是你的BF，我会亲自帮你挑衣服、挑手链，挑牛仔裤，让每个男女孩都羡慕你有个好精神的男朋友。

如果我是你的BF，我会让你带我去看悲剧的电影，出来的时侯还在哭，我会哄你说那只是电影，我们不会那样。

如果我是你的BF，我会在逛街的时侯突然喊饿，然后带你去吃Sushi，点一大桌子的Sushi，你只吃一点就说饱了，我睁大眼睛看着你不可思议的绝望可怜样，因为我要你都吃完，嘿嘿，我喜欢看你吃东西吃到快撑死的样子。

如果我是你的BF，我会在吵架之后,一个人做在很高的地方看着远方哭 ! 如果你错，我气得要骂你，多贵的长途我都会打给你，饿后静静的乖乖的你听着我舍不得教训的叹气声，我则红着脸咬着嘴唇，暗自庆幸阴谋又得逞。

如果我是你的BF，我会在得势的时候很嚣张，弱势的时候就很乖，让你觉得纳闷，”为什么明明是你不对，可喊冤的却总是我。”

如果我是你的BF，我会勾引你喜欢上我爱吃的零食，冰棋凌、薯片还有奶油蛋糕，让你在也找不到说我走路吃蛋糕不淑女的勇气和理由。

如果我是你的BF，我会给你起很多可爱又笨笨的外号，有事没事换着叫。

如果我是你的BF，我会在你的frienz面前给足你面子，然后在背地里算你又欠我几脚和几下挠。

如果我是你的BF，我会让自己看上去很幸福，不用我说，别人都知道你是绝世好Bao Bei。

如果我是你的BF，我会在打电话的时候很有礼貌的和你的父母打招呼，希望他们会对我留下好印象。

如果我是你的BF，我会给你买很便宜但很特别的戒指，我会把两个戴着情侣戒指的手拉到一起，边看边傻笑很久。

如果我是你的BF，我会鼓励你做你喜欢的事情，不要为了学习或责任束缚自己的梦想，因为额外内生短短一瞬，快乐最重要。

如果我是你的BF，如果我知道我遇到了疾病或灾难而让我陪不了你很久，我会骗你说我爱上了别人，让我们分手。

如果我是你的BF，我会希望有来世， 让我还做你的BF…可以吗?

庆幸,这辈子能遇到你,

在我最无助的时候,

是你的出现让我看到了希望.亲爱的,

无论发生什么事情,无论你做出什么样的决定,
我还是有承受的能力....

对你的爱永远都不会变.

我会永远的把这份爱埋藏在内心深处.

Bao Bei ^0^ @ Wei Wei ^00^

Copyright @ 2007

或许有的时候爱也是一瞬间的事情

或许有的时候爱也是一瞬间的事情

爱上一个人，绝对的不该是一时的热情，没有时间的积淀，怎么有爱的香醇？ 或许有的时候爱也是一瞬间的事情

I am lookin on the wall, the clock is walkin alone…

The wind is blowing from the window.

Im holdin a bowl of hot soup,

Im seeing the fried pork and the “nasi pulut v the kaya”.. your favour foods…

I have been waitin since morning til nitez.

The smoke of the hot soup is gone, it’s turning cold.

On the table, the fried pork and the nasi pulut ady smiley ;

everythin I put in the fridge..

Im on the power of the fridge, the cooldest blowin smoke is taken away my soul.

Im sittin on the floor, lookin the gas stove..im an empty.

Ppl told me, there is a “breakin trial” but the system was broken down today…

At the nitez…u r bec.

Open the door n close the door, u go out again.

Im lyin on the bed v the teddy bear u have given to me but I could not sleep yet.

Wait and wait….Is a very late midnitez, u come bec v a guy.

The cool soup, I turn it to hot….the day it’s cool.

U never say a single word, im huggin u all the nitez.

Im scarin…Im frightening..

With the guy u brought bec, in front of my eyes; he was sleepin beside u….

But believe the power of love,

I didn’t feel shame to beggin u,

” Lou Po, give me a chance pls”.

The black nitez turns to a white day, I failured to do it.

Miss u, Hug u, Kiss u, Love u…today everythin is gone.

On the exam day,

while Im reading the question on the exam paper,

my mind is recognized your voice.

I sms u. In the msg, “Lou Po, I have seen a new English letter word today, “spouse” and u r my spouse”.

U replied me “Ya, im your Lou Po; your spouse. Lou Gong I love u”.

Im holdin my pen and keep on writin.

No matter how quick I write, I think…my tear drops on the paper.

The blue ink on the paper become blur…

Within 75 minutes, I raise up my hand..i leave the exam hall.

When the circle is started,

loneliness with the darkness is attackin my world.

I am stayin in the virtual world…with the 4 dimension wall.

The ignorance of the air is keep on talking on me……

I am non sense. I am juz a nothing.

After the days of pushin me to the realistic world,

I accepted the fact and it doesn’t change and it wont change bcoz of u.

A day of a month, I realized I had forgotten your bday.

Oh my God, your bday is yesterday and today I onli realized.

I think I have started to forget u…Is it a gud startin point for me to forget u ?

But wat should I keep frm u..is the happy memories.

Hope I can remember the happy memories….

A love statement : “Hate a person u wont forget him or her easily

but love a person u will forget him or her easily”.

Dear : Ex

U r no belong to me but yourhappiness is belong to me.

Hopin I could keep ur smile in my heart but thanz for I loved u because that I really loved u so much and now I able to forget u in my memory land.

Written by : Jetky

My son's "Daddy"

My son's Daddy Adapted by: Jetky
"18 Years of today...he is no longer in this world."
"Dear, should i go bec to see his last seen?" asked by Jane.
Even it was happenned in 18 years but u should forget n forgive him...
No matter how, he is ur father, ur step father. Adviced by John.


But.... I have been left this home since i born my baby....
I really could not forgive wat my step father has done on me...
I hate my mum, i hate my step father...

"Daddy...where r u now ...u have promised me to buy me a teddy bear to me...
Daddy...pls wake up...Daddy"~~~
Since my dad left us, my nightmare has been started on me.
My dreamz, my hope ..everthing is broken.
After a few months,
my mum had been started to work in
pub and nitez club to feed both of us, my elder brother n me...
Everday, she brings a guy to home...
She is earnin money by her skin...
Her body ...Her soul ady no longer has a value.

A Day after a season...
My mum brings a tall guy bec to her room again.
But this time, this guy is stay in our house since that day started.
1 month...2 months...3 months.....
I really could not stay in this house again..im sufferin
He slaps my mum, he uses the money that my mum earned bec...
He is a "Bitch"...

A year later, i started to grow up...
My Breast is gettin bigger...
My tall is gettin higher...
My beauty is gettin mature...
Im a teenager...
Im sweet 16....

The "bitch" guy is quarreling v my mum again...
The guy wana leave my mum...
My mum takin a knife n beggin on him...
"Lou Gong, dun leave me alone
I really couldnt stay alone in this house...pls.
Wat do u wan ?
I give u evrythin i have..I give u everythin i have..."
I wan ur daughter, can u give me ? !!"
My daugher ?...I give..I give...I give u."

One day....My mum drop me a pill on my drink...
I have no the time...no the right to hold my fate...
He..rapes me..
He..rapes me...
A time... a second time...Many times...
HE raped me...My mum was standin beside me...
"Mum...help me...help me"
but my mum is lookin at me and seekin his lover rapin me...
I HATE U all.

A day after the 10 months...
My stomach is gettin bigger...
I have a baby...My step father's baby....
She, my mum asked me to do an abortion...
I agree..i really dun wan this baby...
But after a day, my step father asked me to born the baby
Bcoz a fortune teller said, the baby could gv him a gud fate in his life...
I have no choice...I have no right...
My brother could nt help me..
Noone could help me...
I ask GOD..."Why this fate is fallen on me" ? ? ? WHY ????

After the 9 months....
I ran out from this family...
From today started , my new life is born...
I start to hunt for a job..
I start to have my own house..
My own bf....and now he is my own husband.

"Halo....Kok...wat up".
"Today, ur step father has jux gone...he is no longer in this world again.But... r u comin bec ?" "Why should i come bec" ?"
Last 2 Years, u din come bec to mum funeral but today is a must for u to come bec..
If not u will regret in ur whole life.."

"Dear, should i go bec to see his last seen?" asked by Jane.
Even it was happenned in 18 years but u should forget n forgive him...
No matter how, he is ur father, ur step father. Adviced by John.

After a long journey to my brother home...
I take a look on my step father...
He has brought me a great gift..
"Mum...is me, im Joshua."
"Daddy told me i have a mum before he leaving"...
"Then..how is ur dad in ur heart" ? "
He is my great great dad..he has taught me a lot of things..
He alwaz say he feel guilty on u...
i could nt understand.Why ....? ? ? "

The surprise is given frm my step father...
My 18 years old son had been taught by my fatherand he is a really gud son....
My son and i have a same father but there is a difference in our heart...
He is a great father in my son heart...He is a "bitch" in my heart...
Everything is gone....
He didnt leave anythin for me..
He has given me a great son....
I forgive him n forger his sin...

"DADDY...My heaven father,
Happy Father's Day...I LOVE YOU"...

为什么你不能为了你自己，为了我好好活一次，好好爱我一次。

(Boreback Mountain 2)
为什么你不能为了你自己，为了我好好活一次，好好爱我一次。

一位年轻的同志，为了他的爱，
为了不再受伤害，他选择了自杀......
生命本是最可贵的东西，却在一霎那逝去，
爱情本是最美好的事，却如此不堪重负。

　 他爱上了一个结婚的男人，
可当他老公的妻子发现他们的事情后，
那个女人疯狂的伤害这位年轻的同志，
到他家里闹，这一切他都能承受！！！
他承受不了的是他所爱的人，
在慢慢退缩，最后抛弃他。
他绝望了，他最后还是选择了逃避，选择了死亡。


　　 他爱上了一个比他大15岁的男人，
男男之间就没有真正的爱情吗？
难道爱就是那么惋惜吗？
爱上了这个毁了他一生的男人！！
　　 他走了，他老公(His lover)，哭天喊地，
可他的泪水会唤回的生命吗？　


　这位朋友自杀前写给他爱人的遗书：　　
遗书-----给老公的一封信　
　
这几日真的是度日如年，我的心在痛苦中煎熬，挣扎。。。。。。　　
又看了老公写给我的四封信，眼泪悄悄滑落我的脸颊，冰凉冰凉的。
说真话，好久没有 落过泪了。

也许我这一辈子的眼泪就在这几天流干了。　　
那时你是多么的爱我啊，你的话语让我如沐春风，
你的亲吻让我沉醉痴迷。
喜欢看你傻 傻的样子，喜欢看你深情的眼神，
喜欢看你被我拒绝时痛苦的表情，
喜欢看你为我疯狂，为我着迷。 　　

也许就是我的不在意，也许就是我的任*，
让我得到了最大的报应，
当我深深的爱上了你，当我再也不能离开你的时候，
发生了那么多让人无法想象的事情，
让我们坠入了悲痛的深渊，我想是老天在惩罚我吧，
你渐渐地离我远去，永远不会，永远不会回头了。。。。。。　　

那天躺在你的怀里，我用我的身心，
用我全部的爱，奉献给我最爱的人，
老公啊，你没发现那天我和平时是多么的不一样啊？？
因为我想那是老婆侍侯你的最后一次了，以后再也不能让老公满足，开心了。　　

你一直说我不成熟，不现实，我一直都不敢承认，和你吵架，狡辩。
因为我一直在逃避，一直无法面对自己。
可是经过那么多的事情后，
我发现我现在可以真正的面对自己了，也可以真正面对你了。　　

那天你对我说，这段时间你需要平静，
我们以后可以象以前那种方式好好在一起，
可我知道那是不可能的，永远不可能的，
因为我现在从美梦中醒过来了，回到了残酷的现实。
现实告诉我，你永远不会象以前那样爱我，那样在乎我了！！　　
我一直很愚蠢，一直想和你的妻子抗衡，
一直想和她去争夺你，我多少次在梦中看到你离婚后，
和我幸福地生活在一起，我能为你烧饭，洗衣服，象个妻子一样服侍你。
可是我知道我的想法真是白日做梦，
残酷的现实让你离我而去，
毕竟我对你的感情不能与你的女儿的幸福，
不能与你的社会地位，
不能与你白发苍苍的双亲相提并论啊！！！　　

老公，我一直说你很懦弱，保护不了我，也保护不了你自己。
其实我比你更懦弱，就因为我的软弱和幼稚，
我更希望有个人能保护我，能让我依靠，
可是现在这些你都无法给我，
可我还是那么的要求你，
伤害你，老公真的对不起啊！　

老公，我知道你活的累，老婆没有带给你快乐，
带给你的只是痛苦和悲伤，
老公，我想我应该面对现实了，
你不要再两头为难了，
真的，老公，老婆想过了，最好的方法还是我离开你，
老公我真的不愿意与你分别，
爱上你，我做了最坏的打算，准备为你吃苦，为你付出，
可是我现在也做出最痛苦的选择，
我只能离开你，永远，永远。　　

当你看到这封信的时候，我已经走了，
虽然我的父母和你都极力挽留我，
可是我知道，我活在人世间，就不会停止我对你的爱，
可是我真怕，我的爱会带给你灾难，会把你的生活都毁了，
我不愿意看到你为了我，而失去一切。　　

老公，你想想看，你现在和我在一起，
是那么提心吊胆，你的心理压力多大啊，
而我真的无法控制我对你的感情，
我怕我哪天又会和你吵，
又会去要求你， 我真的怕！！！！！！！！！　

老公，我走了，这次我真的做了决定，
为了你，为了我父母，
为了让你们在以后的日子能幸福的过下去，
我决定走，不回头了！　　
老公，我真的不甘心，
老天为什么对我那么残忍，
为什么我对你的爱就是那么不值钱，
为什么你不能为了你自己， 为了我好好活一次，好好爱我一次。　

老公，我走了， 我不会告诉你去哪了，
求你，不要再找我， 再劝我，我害怕我会心软，
我怕我回头了，又会伤害你！！！！！！！！　　
老公，我爱你，
你要是问我爱你有多深，我会拿我的生命告诉你！！　　
爱你，下辈子还做你的老婆，
下下辈子，永远永远。。。。。。

How sad of this news that i have gotten....
A guy fallen on love with a guy who has a wife and end up by his own life...
Do u think, the guy worth to do it by end up of his life ? ? ?

Roti Canai VS Tea Tarik VS Chicken

Wat is roti canai ?
I think most of our malaysians should knw wat kind of food is this, rite ?
But....
Have u ever hear of "I never tried roti canai before" ?
Have u ever hear of "I never drunk tea tarik before" ?
Sumore u r malaysian...

Em...I've a frienz.
I name my frienz as "Ms 100 plus"
Jux now I went to yum cha v my classmates together.
While we were orderin food n drink,
and Ms 100 plus ordered 100 plus.
Then we very curious and why Ms 100 plus alwaz order 100 plus at mamak stalls
Tak kan she is 100 plus fans...
HAHA~~~
So we jux forget about it.

After awhile Pei Wah n i ordered "roti telur"
and Ms 100 plus opened her big eyes and asked wat is "roti telur"
All of us were like sweat....and gorek kepala.
She didnt knw wat is "roti telur" !!!!
Then fine...
I told her roti telur is => A slide white roti + telur = roti telur
Haiz...Wat do u think on Ms 100 plus ? ? ?

A few seconds later, Ms 100 plus said she is full but wana get sumthin crispy food to eat.
Then we "recommentted" her to get roti tissue.
She asked wat is this again ?
Pengsan~~~
Roti tissue => A slide of white roti + a piece of tissue
All of us sweat again~~~

After awhile all of us were too co-operative and keep on askin her a lot of things.
We realized that she is not 100 plus actually
It's bcoz she doesnt like to tk indian n malay foods.
Ms 100 plus said "Malay & Indians have "SO Mei".
Ya...
Malay is "Ma Lai So"
Indian is "Ke Ling So"
Faint~!~

The worse is she
never taken roti canai before
never drink tea tarik before
and a lot of NEVER ~~~
Thank GOD ~~~ She is a malaysian. (Very Pai Seh)

Maybe u tot she is jux come bec from oversea or foreigner
but she is not...
She is a 100% original Malaysian product.
I tot Malaysians should be proud
of we have different cultures backrgrounds
and we have different races' food in our society.
But tak ada guna punya..
Semua tipu punya...
She even told us that last time
after she had taken rojak sauce
that her father bought a rojak sauce frm a malay.
Then she muntah all the rojak sauce frm her mouth,
Walao imagine how serious of this case ?
Is this discrimination ? I really dunno lo....


But i thing we knew is
now i onli realized how powerful of education n TV
Bcoz all she knws is from there....
Luckily her house has TV and she has learned "the food" from books.
If not i think her house is on the tree or from another planet.
Really a big faint for her....need to buy sum panadol to cure my head soon.

The most funny thing is we talk about the chicken.
In Malaysia almost the chicken suppliers need to get the "Halal" Licence
all the chickens before "dying", the malay worker need to pray for the chickens.
In my view, i think they may need to pray for the chickens die faster or die more relax...(I dunno) HAHA~~~
But Ms 100 plus asked "So they pray for the chicken one by one ah ? "
Imagine a chicken supplier needs to supply a thousand chickens a day

I think the worker mulut must "bengkak" if pray for one by one ! ! !

Sure pray for a kelompok of ayam rite ?

tak kan pray for the chicken one by one,
until mornin the chicken oso suicide itself....

Haiz...."globalization", i think "cross cultures"
Nak nangis rite ?
Tak boleh tahan rite ?
Wat do u think on her case ?

Do a Flavour for Pizza

Do a Flavour for Pizza Written by: Jetky
Yesterday noon saw a “pizza man” was holdin a bag n realized that it is a pizza…
Suddenly there is a recall from my heart land.
Remember there was a nitez, Im callin u and askin u, u say u r hungry n huntin for food. The day is moon cake festival, r u remember ?

At the moment
urphone is goin to finish the credit. I could not help u much, we really have a distance ; I transfer u 5 dollars and hopin u r able to ask to get a food there.
My heart is beatin, scare u fill get a faint on the roadside… Scarin is tryin control all my mind. Is a devil in my mind… A call from u, “I have asked for a pizza n now I feel full” thanz. A simple sentence that spoken frm ur lips is able to get a comfort to my soul. The day was our first “missin day”….

A day after Days…
U r tellin me, im not takin a gud care for u. It was a kind of sin for me.
U r tellin me, im treat frienz is beta than u. It was a hurtin words from u.
U r tellin me, im hurtin
urheart. It was a fault from me.
I admitted…
I am sorry I had sharpened the words I spoke

A broken Day
U r bringin a new lover in the day of miracle
The miracle wont happen,
The signal of the miracle is a darkness of the nitez
I am searchin for the shadow u have left on my heart
I failured…
I have no voice to voice out

A scarin Day
U r spyin, the space of me is limited
U r cursin, the new days of my life is hardful
U r hidin, the hate to me
Im guilty….
I am hurtin ur heart in deeply

A lesson of toDay
Thank for left me a piece of memories days
I know we would not have a miracle
I do not hope u r lookin bec to me
I do not hope I am lookin bec to u
Coz it was onli a dreamz, A 208 days dreamz…

A regards for u…
Love is as nice as a pizza
A hot pizza has given u a warm
There’s a pizza appears at the right time, right place
A sticky cheese of pizza is
urbread of breakfast
If u r “lovin” the pizza
Pls do a “flavour” for ur new life

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