The 208 days was a dreamz....

18, May 2007 Friday3:34 AM

In the past 208 days,
i've learned a lot....
U've given a big impact in my life....
An experience was enaf for me...
Remember the time u were rejectin me...

But today i able to stand to accept my new life....
Thanz for the experience....
A history was given me a hurt...
But today i need to stand up to reject u again....

Is no use that the bird comes bec to my cage again....
I've thrown the cage ....
The old cage was not value for me n for u again....
The onli thing that is not changin is the history....

I dun mind u hurt me....
I believe i was cared u...
I dun mind u curse me....
I believe i was loved u...

There is no use that u ask more from me...
We've a distance....
U dun ask me why....
I jux can say i scare u....

Dun try to ask me about my relationship...
I wont tel u more....
I have built a firewall....
Scare for ur cursin...

All is gone....
Past wasnt come bec again....
Dun ask me there is a possibility...
In the past i ady gave u my heart....

Now i jux wana re-build myself....
Given me a chance pls....
Now i jux wana have a silent life....
Given me a hope pls....
The 208 days was a dreamz....

Feeling....

12, May 2007 Saturday4:18 PM

Feeling....
Im try to close to u
It seems like i could not approach
I try to mk u happy
It seems like u have no feelin

I try to concern u
It seems like im hurtin u
Wat should i do ?
The feelin of u seems like gettin far from me
wat should i do ?
The heart key from u is gettin far from me
Wat shoud i do ?

The song of angel is step onto my heart
Is it im think to much
I should not think
Is it im feelin hurtI should not feel hurt
Is it u hv no feel on me
I should not have feel on u

I realized i miss ur voice
Oh my. u r my soul
I realized i miss ur soul
Oh my, u r my spirit
I reaalized
i miss ur sms
Oh my, u r my vitamin
I realized i miss ur feelin
Oh my, u r taken away my heart

but today u...
I dunno wat is hapenin
But today u...
I dunno why u jux sms a single smsbut today u...
I dunno why i cry for u
But today u...
I dunno why i scare to lose u

Am i fallen in love ? ? ?

3rd day at labu

11, May 2007 Friday10:11 PM
Em..jux came bec from waterfall v my best frienz n his bf and the "yam yam."
We naik motor went to the small village,
em....forgot wat name ady.
Then yam yam n i was played water but for another 2 of them i really dunno wat they were doin while i played water v "Yam Yam".
Dun worry...Yam Yam is a straight guy.
Haha~~

I really cant tahan "Yam Yam" brought shampoo n hair gel to the waterfall for mandi.
Aiyo, i was like i think he wanted to pulluted the water...
Anyway, Yam Yam has done sumthin special n i successful to tested him....
Jacky u kalah lo.

Afterward, we went to KFC for makan.
And while my best frienz n i were eatin, "Yam Yam n my best firenz 's bf; mouth fightin" and both of us stil can enjoy the food even we Haha~~~
Finished the food then we naik motor to hz, in the journey both of them fighted again.
They not onli fight on mouth while ridin motor but also fight on body action....

Aiyo, Yam Yam was fetchin me and my life was like swt
Then, i jux keep on prayin the motor wil not go into longkang or river.
Coz his technic was not so gud but he jux keep on rushin.
i really can felt wat is feelin of heaven n hell...
Em..luckily, i can survive and now typin the jornal. Thanz GOd~~~

2nd day at labu (A Fucker kacau)

11, May 2007 Friday3:58 AM

today, We went to Jusco in seremban n had a lunch
Then sharin sum funny n crazy "real esperiences" and
we laughed loudy n took sum photos today.

After a movie , NEXT ,"yam yam"( a Straight guy) came to join us ,
and my frienz n i alwaz bully him while playin bowlin.
but i hv more chances to bully him coz i sat his car. haha~~~~
Actually i wil have a nice mood today.

But a Fucker come to kacau us....
Im from top of the point dropped to sad.
Wat u said ? Why u so concern about me this a few days ?
Walao...checkin me all the time...Is it i couldnt come to seremban ?
U r jux my EX !
U r not my bf..... Dun foget u hv a bf now....
I scare ur bf wil jealous soon...

U alwaz jux break ppl mood....
We were happy on the way to hv dinnerbut u were the Fucker come to kacau us...
Pls la....Cooperate a bit, MR Dxxxxx ! ! !
Wat u talked to my frienz....
U said i treated frienz beta than treated u in the pastand jux like ur appearance.
Ok well....I treated frienz is beta than u n love ur apperance,
how nice of these sentences from ur mouth...
Remember 26th Dec , 00.05am ?
Wat happened ?
We were robbed, the snatch thief was chasin u and i rushed to save ur life.
After that withdrawn my emergency money to see doctor.
Sumore spent more 2 days in MC. Remember ?

Sumore, opened a savin account v u in JAn 29 .
Wat we promised durin that time ?
Then i subsidies u to buy insurance...., remember ?
If u think i was treated u r toy then u continue to think of it la...
I dun believe my frienz no eyes to judge, sumore the god dunno how to judge....
why we break up hor ?

Bcoz of ur jealousy...until now u hv a bf u stil need to
"So concern" where am i sumore need to call my frienz n check me.
If u really not syok can come to find me.
Dun disturb my frienz....It is concern about 2 of us.
If u r thinkin i didnt love u in the past and treated u as a toy then jux let it be la.
Im not goin to fight v u, coz it is wastin my time, enegry n money to fight v u.
Wat for ? Let the frienz that knw the whole real story to judge.
U can say watever u like as long as ur mouth stil avaiable....

Aiyo, forget to shout u dim~~~
U said wat ah...tel the whole world la...need to advertist ?
U jux scare the whole world is too peace.
Alwaz do sumthin til we scare of u.I beg u la, dennis.
Stop ur movement la...
Past is an experience, learn from experience n from mistake.